Could It Be?

Could it be,
That this is yet, another self-abasement period for me?
Has my pride soared so high that only You can abase me?
Will I be able to redeem myself higher in Your Eyes?
Will I survive?

Could it be,
That this is yet, another Mercy?
Just like the one You did for me?
When You let life leave me cold with only You to warm me?

Could it be,
That this is a test that shall defeat me?
That nothing could redeem me?
That You have turned Your Majestic face away?
In disdain...

Could it be,
That You hate me?
That my entire being could be so undeserving?
That You have left me to my own destiny?
That I shall spiral my way down the abyss?

Could it be,
That there is still hope for me?
That You would take me back?
I beg You,
Please take me back!

I feel so cold!
Now that I've tasted Your Warmth and Your Light,
I feel so alone!
Now that I've seen Your Mercy and Your Might,
I feel so hapless!
Now that I've built my life around You,
I wonder why I need him too?